so.. uh.. guess i should say dear diary or something...

Not many people come on here now days so i'm just gonna type and if u want to comment feel free to do so.. ^_^

Anyway.. My summer holiday is nearly up and I have to say, I feel like crying.
It was a very good holiday, well the end half anyway.
I had 8/9 weeks off and though we didn't do much for the first 4 weeks it was a very relaxing and frustrating time. Relaxing because, well obviously no college so no work or stress.. But frustrating because I had to wait for 4 weeks till Odin would arrive.
Now I don't know what love is supposed to be like but i wouldn't trade what I feel for anything. I love him and he loves me. I was so happy when I got to see him finally after not being able to see him for 3 years! Anyway, I got to spend a wonderful week with him.. And then he had to go back to South Africa.. I miss him so much. When he left I felt like he'd taken most of me with him. I wanted to cry so much but there was no one there to help me stop so i tried and sort of managed not to cry.. The only thing that really stopped me was the fact that i'll most likly get to see him in December... But that's still so far away.. :/
And now college is starting in a week and I feel like breacking down and I don't think i'm gonna pass this year at college, but then i don't really want to..

Anyway, I've also nearly completed writing my first book so there's good news on that front :)
I should be finished writting it by end September at most and then on to the difficult process of getting an agent, who will then hopefully be able to find me a publisher, editor and illistrater.
I'm crossing my fingers that it all goes well so that I can publish my book and hopefully it'll be a bestseller and I'll make some money and people will hopefully love my book. Because the only job I ever want is to be an author it's my dream job. So wish me luck. ^_^

Anyway if you read this and my moods slightly confuse you then i'm sorry.. but i'm going through a good and bad time so i don't know how to really feel...

Comment if you want.

Dido: Life for rent

I listened to this song a short while back and i was thinking about it.. I mean it just sorta stuck with me and I don't know how to explain it but i think these lyrics are just so wow... lol, guess my words are a little sub-standard here.. but anyway these are the lyrics tell me what you think.

^_^

I haven't ever really found a place that I call home

I never stick around quite long enough to make it

I apologize once again I'm not in love

But it's not as if I mind

that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy

Well I deserve nothing more than I get

Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought

that I would love to live by the sea

To travel the world alone

and live more simply

I have no idea what's happened to that dream

Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy

Well I deserve nothing more than I get

Cos nothing I have is truly mine

If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy

Well I deserve nothing more than I get

Cos nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down

While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try

Well how can I say I'm alive

If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy

Well I deserve nothing more than I get

Cos nothing I have is truly mine

If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy

Well I deserve nothing more than I get

Cos nothing I have is truly mine

Cos nothing I have is truly mine

Cos nothing I have is truly mine

Cos nothing I have is truly mine

Long time no chat...

Hi.

so, hmm.. What to say..

I've been good. Have almost finished my first year at college! Finished all my exams and done all my course and have passed the year with a destiction! ^_^

Oh! We've also moved house! It's a lot bigger than the last place and has a huge garden with a forest out behind the back wall and loads of plants in the garden and me and my sis got a huge trampoline to share as a birthday present!! I luv the place, one downside though is that i can't get a kitten... :/

I can't believe it's nearly 9 pm and it's still light out! lol,it's deffinately becoming summer here in england! :P

How've you all been? What have you all been doing?

*hugs*

^_^

hi, again.

Sorry I've been gone so long.

Anyway. So yeah. Prom was okay, kinda boring. Considering I don't like to dance.. lol
So.. I'm in college now, have been since September...
:P

uhh.. Other than that not much to be said. Oh yeah! I got loads of books for Christmas! :D

really happy, ^_^

It's also snowed here. So we got 2 days off!!!! ^_^
It was awesome, 'course i got a cold 'cause i got buried under snow by my sis and had to lie down to make snow angels! still worth it though.
xD

Now it's started raining so much it's flooded in some places!
lol

Got some sad news too... :/ My mouse; Treasure, died and my hamster; Ocean, also died recently.... At least they both lived long lives... :)

We might also be moving to a new place soon, i hope!
:D

I guess i was wrong there was more to say... lol