so.. uh.. guess i should say dear diary or something...

Not many people come on here now days so i'm just gonna type and if u want to comment feel free to do so.. ^_^

Anyway.. My summer holiday is nearly up and I have to say, I feel like crying.
It was a very good holiday, well the end half anyway.
I had 8/9 weeks off and though we didn't do much for the first 4 weeks it was a very relaxing and frustrating time. Relaxing because, well obviously no college so no work or stress.. But frustrating because I had to wait for 4 weeks till Odin would arrive.
Now I don't know what love is supposed to be like but i wouldn't trade what I feel for anything. I love him and he loves me. I was so happy when I got to see him finally after not being able to see him for 3 years! Anyway, I got to spend a wonderful week with him.. And then he had to go back to South Africa.. I miss him so much. When he left I felt like he'd taken most of me with him. I wanted to cry so much but there was no one there to help me stop so i tried and sort of managed not to cry.. The only thing that really stopped me was the fact that i'll most likly get to see him in December... But that's still so far away.. :/
And now college is starting in a week and I feel like breacking down and I don't think i'm gonna pass this year at college, but then i don't really want to..

Anyway, I've also nearly completed writing my first book so there's good news on that front :)
I should be finished writting it by end September at most and then on to the difficult process of getting an agent, who will then hopefully be able to find me a publisher, editor and illistrater.
I'm crossing my fingers that it all goes well so that I can publish my book and hopefully it'll be a bestseller and I'll make some money and people will hopefully love my book. Because the only job I ever want is to be an author it's my dream job. So wish me luck. ^_^

Anyway if you read this and my moods slightly confuse you then i'm sorry.. but i'm going through a good and bad time so i don't know how to really feel...

Comment if you want.